Tuesday, April 6, 2010

The End?

I never really know how best to end my Lenten practices. Pop - well. I had two today, argh! I bought a vanilla Dr at BJ's (this end of town's version of Sonic, the other end of town actually has Sonic) as a celebration of my last pop for a long while. We shall see. But it did feel good. It felt final. It was fun.

I mostly wrote my family once a week. And now to just write nothing seems extreme and sad and lonely. Will they think I don't love them anymore? Will they think they did something wrong? It's just weird. I know they won't. I just saw my folks and middle sister and will see my Aunt Loly this weekend, but still.

How do we end? Have I changed? Have I come closer to God, to my family, to knowing who God created me to be without pop in my life?

I'm not sure. I do love Jesus. I do believe he lived, died and rose again for me. Those things I know for sure. The rest? I don't know.

Deuteronomy 29:29 (New International Version)

29 The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may follow all the words of this law.

Lord, thank you for sending me your Son. Thank you for giving me these past weeks to specifically focus, sacrifice and reflect on your love for me and what that means to me. Please continue to open my heart and mind to your word revealed to me.